Thursday, December 29, 2005 @ 10:34 PM
i was washing my hands and i passed by my parents' room- where i saw my mum crying. i went up to her and asked if she was okay. i knew she was crying- even before i saw her cry.
she told me the doctor say my grandpa won't live. there's no hope for him.
and she cries.
i rested on hands on her arms and told her gently not to cry. in my heart, i didn't know how to respond or what to say to her. i decided that words were not important. i just stayed beside her, my hands still on her, and i stayed there silently until my mum's stopped crying so badly.
oh God.
i'm at lost of what to do or what to say to her. i really don't know what to do to make her feel better. crack a joke? i'll probably crack her heart instead. i asked God to tell me how sad she was feeling, and i forced myself not to cry. she was so sad. so sad. so, so sad. there was no joy in her heart, and everything she thought about was what the doctor had said. her mind was repeating the same sentence again and again: he won't live.
i really don't know what to do. but one thing for sure i know-
she's lacking of joy.
and she cries.